Things...

Like, seeing the afternoon melt away into a sunset. Contemplating how fast the world moves, time flies...thinking about all the things you could've done and still have a little time in which to revive them and move on. Do the things you like and do it when you feel like doing them....like...taking a walk, sitting in a cafe you like and ordering what you like without worrying about weight/blood pressure. No point in doing them two hours later, you feel like you're doing a chore and it's that much less enjoyable. I actually got cold feet just going into a cafe alone, just coz two people gave me a look that I interpreted as 'poor lonely thing'. I felt that the last time I ate alone at pizza hut, a girl who looked at me as if i was out of my mind to be eating there alone. Not that it stopped me...made me chew my food slower just to put it in her face a little more. But a casual look stopped me that day and made me justify not going coz I had to avoid the traffic on New Year's Eve.

Not that I regret it...the moment had passed and going through it would have seemed like a chore.