Happiness

Hi,

Right now, I'm happy. I know this might not last. But, still here and happy! Am preserving this moment...goodness knows how long it will last. Got to have one post that was witness to it all.

I think, instead of watching a stupid reality show and killing my eyes over it, i'll read a book tonight and put an eye pillow afterwards. I need to assess my priorities.

Love,

Me.

A little bit of this and that

Went bookstore hopping last evening...and ran out of one coz it depressed me. The other one wasnt any better but it was too cold and too uninviting and as ignorant as a bumpkin dressed in Page 3 attire...you had the window dressing but none of the substance. And that's how I spent my sunday evening. In despair.

I dont know why after every party with a particular group saps and depresses me. It sucks away my happiness as a Dementor would. It makes me examine myself as i never have. The end result is a time-out from thinking which drove me all by myself to bookstores. Where i only agonize about what to collect...what to buy...not about my life!

Those events are required when one starts looking at oneself from all angles...good or bad. It doesnt matter eventually, you know you will hop back. But the journey really drains you.

However, I got two good books in the bargain and have started reading one.

I'm loving it!

Wandering Mind...and Shifting Loyalties

Dating is so hard. Especially you think it’s the wrong guy but you still hang on to find out whether the sparks will fly and magic will happen regardless of your first few impressions. Impressions do change and surprising things can happen in the weeks after the first two crucial weeks of getting to know a person. But I don’t know if I want to go so far. Yet, I know that it would be stupid to live by first impressions. Since I could also be on the receiving end of it.

Hence, selfish motives do eventually drive you to do the right thing. You just don’t want bad things to happen to you, coz you believe what goes around comes around.

On a totally unrelated topic, I’m getting a new bed. It’s not a sofa cum bed. I won’t have to roll it out every night and it won’t have to be tucked back in at morn. But I don’t save any space in the room, and well, the room might look smaller. But who cares? Less effort. Plus, we might get to chuck some of the other heavier furniture just coz it makes the room look smaller. Shopping! As if I need any more excitement in my life.

Nothing to do...

I love being surrounded by red and orange flowers around autumn...the weather's changing and sadly, there's no autum foliage around my home. I live in tropical weather which perenially has only a few shades of variation throughout the year. Some leaves do turn yellow and start shedding off trees, but it happens in the hottest summers too. One could pretend but when one's too practical to be liked then one has to make do with one's own imagination that perhaps stops at red and orange flowers. Perhaps I should add a yellow leaf or two to make it more real.

I live in a thoroughly cosmopolitan city where a young girl can live alone, go to work and take a cab back home (someone else said that about my city...i didnt). But that's the truth. You love the pace, it gets under your skin and gets absorbed into your bloodstream. You're a throbbing city specimen. Hence, on trips to anyplace other than here, you take loads of books and stuff to amuse yourself in case well...time starts dragging.

I went to a village though where nothing drags as slowly as time and spent it reading or doing nothing. And i loved doing the latter - sitting at the porch and gazing at mountains with nothing better to do than just sit and stare. and balance yourself on the porch ledge. You can do it anytime of the day and all day too. Made me realise how much of this endless time i spend doing endless tasks. And how i need to get away from it all, just so i dont miss this life and this city and the beautiful country that God's made all for us.