Someone to share your dreams with...

I've always had a friend who was closer than the rest of the gang i'd belong to. But i've hardly ever had best friends who'd stick thru thick and thin. And now, I'm proud to say that i've two friends who exactly fit this description. They are the sort to give you exactly what you need, take you where you want to go, tell you what you need to listen and end up making you feel loved (inspite of all the truth they give out once in every while). They're not second-thinking about letting you know exactly wht they feel about you, your choices, your loves etc. And yet, everytime, you'd want to run to them irrespective of how they make you feel (which is good...all the time I am with them).

At the same time, they can be exasperating with their own life, choices, loves etc. But we take it in our stride coz we love each other and this is such a pure form of love (i know a relationship cant always be like this). That's why girlfriends (esp) need each other. Whether I'm in love or not, whether I make new friends or not...I know whom i'm gonna keep coming back to.

All the world needs are best friends... all other things come second.

Peace

You know what ultimate peace is?

To leave someone who doesnt like the person you turn out to be. Everyone changes, even people who proclaim that they can never change eventually do have to eat their words (i am one of them). And people who cannot stand the change in you are better off left and forgotten.

However, being the person I am...I cannot forget. I then try out a strategy whereby I am good friends and yet, not in any danger of going back on my words (aka going back to the person i've left). And somehow, it aint hard for me. Yet, its hard to get the flak that eventually comes along just coz you're there and you are ready to accept what is thrown at you.

And you accept just coz you love that person more than you knew you did. Some things just dont change. And such things are better left unchanged and unproclaimed.

True love can mean saying goodbye to feelings, affections and friendship even....just as much as it can mean staying back and biting every rising emotion just to protect the other person. Sometimes, staying back can get impossible. And well, so is saying a complete goodbye and getting out of it.

Entering the magic lamp

I'm entering another world...far away from prying eyes...far away from nasty surprises :)

Not that i dont want anyone to know, but just trying to have a place of my own away from people I know or people i fear would judge me. Here's where i've thought for a long time about writing exactly what i believe in. You're welcome to stay if you like. I'm always gonna be here.

So, I was sitting by myself all of yesterday and suddenly i liked it much more than being in a crowd and having no fun. There's something to be said even about shopping for essentials at such a time, aka by yourself. You find new things in places some companion wouldnt have chosen to go.

Dinner for two, prawns biryani and chicken shabnam curry. I'll have to eat it for lunch today as well, there's quite a lot of food. Watched a sex and the city VCD that i'd missed at the rental store earlier. Loved it, coupled the CD with "The Banger Sisters" which also i loved. It's a bit too fast from what I'd expected. You wonder if anyone has really had the time to make amends that early...and Geoff Rush is amazing. Ian Mc Kellen (if that's the right spelling) and Geoffrey Rush just make me gasp for more. Always surprising and full of surprises.

Was thinking about ex-boyfriends and how to deal with the demise of a relationship. No right way and yet very very bad for the self esteem. There's also the thing of it blowing in your face even when you've done all you could to prevent such a situation. Humans, right? Always something else waiting in line to blow up and bring you two steps back from where you were.

Anyway, i'd had a good day...without baggage (ok ok, maybe a little handbag) and without guilt. But, definitely not without sin...he he he!